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What do frying donuts, a dream about a crosswalk, and the London Symphony Orchestra have in common?
More than I ever expected—and it’s why I’m getting ready for a green light I can’t yet see.

Over a year ago, I walked into my hometown grocery store one morning and noticed the sign on the door: Donut Fryer Needed. I applied. I got the job.

Frying donuts was strangely satisfying, and the steady income helped cover the everyday costs of being a working musician. Meanwhile, our duo, Double Keyed, was working toward our vision of recording a new album together with the London Symphony Orchestra. But just eight months in, during a meeting announcing the store’s takeover, I sensed a quiet voice: Let go of the job. Then came a question: Do you trust Me?

Honestly, my answer was no. Saying it out loud to God felt freeing. My heart softened: I don’t trust You… but I want to.

That same week at Barnes & Noble, a book title stopped me: I Want to Trust You, But I Don’t. I bought the book. It mirrored my exact prayer. I took it as a sign.

I decided to test what I felt I was hearing. I went through the interview process with the new management to see if clarity would come. In the end, I said no. I would not be staying after the takeover. It was a step of faith. I hoped I had discerned correctly.

On January 20, I began a rigorous new practice schedule. I now had quality time to devote to focused practice to prepare for our new album.

A few weeks later, I was leading worship at a couples’ retreat at Sandy Cove in North East, Maryland. One morning at breakfast, a man shared a dream. His family teased him about his odd dreams, he said, but I leaned in to listen.

In his dream, he stood at a crosswalk with no visible signal. A voice told him:

“You’re waiting for the light to turn green. It’s not red or yellow—you just need to position yourself at the crosswalk so that when it turns green, you can go. Get ready.”

Every word resonated. It felt like God was saying, This is why I asked you to trust Me—so you can get ready.

Seven months later, the light hasn’t turned green, but I can hear the hum of traffic, feel the air shift. We’ve raised over 42% of our funds, every song is arranged and orchestrated, and Phase 1 is basically complete.

These months of preparation have been a quiet gift—shaping my confidence, sharpening my focus.

Because the truth is, we don’t have to see the green light to start walking toward it.
Sometimes, the getting ready is the miracle.

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If you’d like to help Kirstin and me get to that green light a little faster, you can be part of the journey here: https://www.doublekeyedmusic.com/support